"Moses answered, 'What if they do not believe me or listen to me and say, 'The Lord did not appear to you'?'" Exodus 4:1
"Moses said to the Lord, 'Pardon your servant, Lord. I have never been eloquent, neither in the past nor since you have spoken to your servant. I am slow of speech and tongue.'" Exodus 4:10
"But Moses said, 'Pardon your servant, Lord. Please send someone else.'" Exodus 4:13
The book of Exodus is an incredible story of oppression and redemption. God demonstrated an incredible love for Israel. He demonstrated incredible patience and persistence. I know many times when we think of Exodus we think of Moses. And to be certain, Moses is an incredible man. But he is a man that God calls, God equips, and God empowers. In Exodus 4, we find Moses once again suffering from a focus problem. He is standing before Almighty God. He knows that God has chosen him to be a deliverer for the Israelites. Yet, Moses takes his eyes and ears off God and places them on himself. In his humility, Moses thinks so little of himself that it is actually more arrogance that humility. He focuses on what he can't do rather than focusing on what God can do. All Moses sees when he looks upon himself is what he is lacking. God has already told him that He would be with him everywhere he goes. God has already told him that He would equip him and empower him. Moses answered God's calling in his life with areas of lacking. Moses lacked trust and confidence. In asking the question about the Israelites lack of belief, Moses really reveals his own lack of belief. Moses was worried about the Israelites believing the words he would speak, but in reality, he was having a hard time believing that God would really do what He said he would do. Moses lacked proper communication skills. He reminds God, as if God needs reminding, that he has never been an eloquent speaker, in the past as an Egyptian and especially now as a Hebrew shepherd. Moses felt insufficient for the task at hand. Moses lacked commitment. In his final plea to God, Moses reveals his lack of commitment to God's calling upon his life. This was an act of complete selfishness. Remember, Moses' first words when God spoke to him were, "Here I am." It seems as thought now Moses was saying, "Here I am, but please send someone else." But we must remember God's character. God is patient and persistent with Moses. God answered each area of lacking in Moses' life with signs and promises. God gives Moses power and authority. Moses possessed a staff, not a scepter. However, this was the staff of God. He threw it on the ground, and it became a snake. The very symbol that the Egyptians had carved into their crowns and their walls. God gave Moses the ability to grab it by the tail and overpower it, a sign that He would empower Moses with authority over Pharaoh and Egypt. God gave Moses the ability to perform powerful miracles. He was able to put his hand into his cloak, and it was leprous when removed. He would put it back into the cloak, and it would be healed. He was able to take water from the Nile River and turn it into blood when poured upon the ground. Yes, God empowered Moses with the ability to perform miracles never before seen by man. God gave Moses supernatural ability to speak words of truth and power before Pharaoh and all the people. God had already told Moses that He would be with him, and now God was telling him that He would empower him mightily! And God, in a final act of grace and mercy, gave Moses a helper. He brought him his brother Aaron to be another voice before Pharaoh and the people.
God knows us better than we know ourselves. He knows the areas where we are lacking. He knows the struggles that we face, both internally and externally. If God is calling us to a certain place, to a certain people, or to a certain task, we must focus more on who He is rather than focusing on who we are not. He will be with us. He will empower us. We serve Him for His glory, not our own. We serve Him in His strength, not our own. Will we continue to focus on the things we lack, or will we begin to focus on God and His promises and all that He can do to us and through us? It really comes down to what you believe. It really comes down to who you believe. Many times, we are choosing to believe Satan, whether intentionally or unintentionally, rather than choosing to believe God. To place your focus on self or anyone or anything else other than God is to choose sin. Sin is what separates us from God. Sin separates us from the truth of God, the love of God, and the power of God. No wonder we walk around living defeated, deflated, and devalued lives. Jesus warned us in John 10:10 that the enemy only wants to "steal, kill, and destroy" us. Jesus promises us that He came so that we might "have life and have it to the full." Focus on God and live in His personal, powerful, and intimate presence. Believe His Word! Claim His Word! Live His Word! Amen!!!